And so it is....
Sometimes, there is a really amazing, inspiring and connected way that comes about from life. Or more so, life is always amazing, inspiring and connected, but every once in awhile, we see it. We see how our path is part of a journey and we see that it has lead us to exactly where we should be. Exactly where we are ready to be.
I haven't blogged lately. I haven't for good reason, which I will get to in a minute, but my short stint at blogging took me on a small path of self discovery. It allowed me some "me time" which I rarely ever took before this blog came along. Even small things, like finding out how I want to re-do my kitchen, or allowing me to get on every morning and read through posts created by people all over who got it. Who were doing what they loved, how they wanted, and they were successful at it.
So I started thinking. Was I really happy? How happy was I doing what I was doing? Where did I see myself in my own big picture? How could I be successful?
The motions and going through them stopped being enough for me. So I stopped. I stopped working through the day to day and started working through the life. Three things that I feel in this moment, need my attention, my support and my effort more than anything. More than a daily blog post.
1.) My marriage. My marriage is a constant work in progress. My relationship with my husband is the most important relationship to nourish, grow, and learn from. My need to spend my nights with him, to talk with him, accept him, respect him and support him is something that I need to focus on. I want to focus on.
2.) My spirituality. I mentioned awhile back that my quest for being a more spiritual person, my quest to find God was a challenge for me. Interestingly enough, I am slowly learning that I have been looking in all the wrong places. I have been looking for the wrong God for myself. What I'm finding, learning and realizing about myself and my faith has nothing to do with being in a church. But, I need to allow myself the time, space and energy to discover what I am slowly seeing.
3.) My job. Here is the biggest change and challenge for me. Simply put, I outgrew my job. My job I love, the one I get up every morning and love going to. I realized, that I had outgrown it. I had moved past what I was doing, I was being held back and there was no one to blame but myself for that. I was looking for something that just wasn't there anymore....
So I bought it. I bought my job. Literally. As of April 4, I am going to be the new owner of the boutique that my mom has loving created and curated for the last three years. As I came to the realization that I could no work as the manager of this beautiful boutique, that I was ready for more, she realized that it was time for her to let it go. She was ready too. I am excited. I am nervous. I am scared. I am going to miss my mom, a lot (her plans are to move out of state). But I am ready....
So. Here we are. With this safe tiny piece of my internet that I love so much, that I have been neglecting. That I truly miss, but also know that priorities change and that currently, my beautiful little blog will sit on my back burner. While I do know that when I do come back, most of my readers will have moved on, most of the bloggers that I started with will have grown to enormous follower numbers and will in fact succeed at this blogging business, I know that for me, I have to let something go right now.
Thank you for reading, supporting and encouraging me in all my life ramblings. Until next time!