And so it is....

Sometimes, there is a really amazing, inspiring and connected way that comes about from life. Or more so, life is always amazing, inspiring and connected, but every once in awhile, we see it. We see how our path is part of a journey and we see that it has lead us to exactly where we should be. Exactly where we are ready to be.

I haven't blogged lately. I haven't for good reason, which I will get to in a minute, but my short stint at blogging took me on a small path of self discovery. It allowed me some "me time" which I rarely ever took before this blog came along. Even small things, like finding out how I want to re-do my kitchen, or allowing me to get on every morning and read through posts created by people all over who got it. Who were doing what they loved, how they wanted, and they were successful at it.

So I started thinking. Was I really happy? How happy was I doing what I was doing? Where did I see myself in my own big picture? How could I be successful?

The motions and going through them stopped being enough for me. So I stopped. I stopped working through the day to day and started working through the life. Three things that I feel in this moment, need my attention, my support and my effort more than anything. More than a daily blog post.

1.) My marriage. My marriage is a constant work in progress. My relationship with my husband is the most important relationship to nourish, grow, and learn from. My need to spend my nights with him, to talk with him, accept him, respect him and support him is something that I need to focus on. I want to focus on.

2.) My spirituality. I mentioned awhile back that my quest for being a more spiritual person, my quest to find God was a challenge for me. Interestingly enough, I am slowly learning that I have been looking in all the wrong places. I have been looking for the wrong God for myself. What I'm finding, learning and realizing about myself and my faith has nothing to do with being in a church. But, I need to allow myself the time, space and energy to discover what I am slowly seeing.

3.) My job. Here is the biggest change and challenge for me. Simply put, I outgrew my job. My job I love, the one I get up every morning and love going to. I realized, that I had outgrown it. I had moved past what I was doing, I was being held back and there was no one to blame but myself for that. I was looking for something that just wasn't there anymore....

So I bought it. I bought my job. Literally. As of April 4, I am going to be the new owner of the boutique that my mom has loving created and curated for the last three years. As I came to the realization that I could no work as the manager of this beautiful boutique, that I was ready for more, she realized that it was time for her to let it go. She was ready too. I am excited. I am nervous. I am scared. I am going to miss my mom, a lot (her plans are to move out of state). But I am ready....

So. Here we are. With this safe tiny piece of my internet that I love so much, that I have been neglecting. That I truly miss, but also know that priorities change and that currently, my beautiful little blog will sit on my back burner. While I do know that when I do come back, most of my readers will have moved on, most of the bloggers that I started with will have grown to enormous follower numbers and will in fact succeed at this blogging business, I know that for me, I have to let something go right now.

Thank you for reading, supporting and encouraging me in all my life ramblings. Until next time!
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Win some cash!

I am such a sucker for a giveaway! Seriously though...

Awhile back I entered a random giveaway, forgot about it and ended up winning. Thus started my streak for wanting to enter giveaways all the time... Because you know, now I'm lucky... Right?
Anyway, I thought I might share some of that luck with you in the form of my participating in my own giveaway with Samantha at The Samantha Life!

While I wish that each of you could win, only one person will be the lucky recipient of $90 CASH. Heck yeah! I would love for you to comment let me know what you'd spend your money on. I know if I had the chance, Sephora would be shipping me a thing or two!

Good luck!

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This Little Sunday....

This little Sunday is going to be absolutely perfect.

This week was rough. They seem as though they've been rough lately. It was rough, until I decided to commit myself to changing that. I'm sure I will touch on it more, but I have been advised to look inward, not outwardly for what I really want, what really makes me happy. Thus brought along my inner need for change. So, while I'm not ready to put it out in blog land, I am excited for what's transforming (changing) to make my weeks, months, years ahead less rough.

I got a sewing machine this last Christmas and I cannot believe I haven't used it yet! I figured the 25% off coupon I received from JoAnn's this last week was a sign telling me to go buy fabric, pins, scissors, thread and start creating. I went to the fabric store last night and got the supplies necessary to make myself an apron and make Wyatt a pair of flannel pajama pants (yes, those are trains)!

I am so, so tired of eating out. I feel like that's all I've done this last week for lunch and dinner, and even breakfast a few times. This week I hope to eat in more, starting with the steaks that are in the fridge to grill tonight! It will be our first session since last fall and I cannot wait. I say OUR first grill session because Wyatt grills and I eat. Speaking of eating in, Wyatt was sick recently and I had my mom send me her ultimate Chicken Noodle Soup recipe... You know, the one your mom made you when you were a kid? She pulled this one out from her old, old Betty Crocker cookbook and said that this was how her Grandma used to make it. Trust me, you will not go wrong with it, and it was so easy to make! I love the worn look of the recipe, it reminds me how often it's been used.

I was supposed to go on a fun shopping trip to Seattle with my mom in a few weeks and I ended up canceling to be responsible. Shopping in Seattle with her is my absolute #1 favorite thing to do, but I figured we had other things to take care of before I did that. So, I decided that while I may not blow a ton of money there, I might spend a little today and try and find some new throw pillows for our couch. I'm thinking florals. I kind of like these from Pier One?

I hope you have a fantastic week and a perfect little Sunday also!

Good Reads Thursday

Happy first day of spring! Right?

..... Right?

I woke up this morning to all the Instagram posts about it being the first day of spring, and I was so excited, as excited as I could be at 6:30am!

I head downstairs, leash the dogs up for their morning relief time, step outside...

Well, yeah. Not spring quite yet here. It was freezing. So freezing that my dog was lifting her little paws to keep her feet off the ground. Like, -10 degrees below zero cold.

Happy spring in Alaska!

So, instead of talking about our fab weather here in the North, I will instead talk about a few good reads I came across this week!

  • Hayley at A Beautiful Exchange posted this recently... Combatting Comparisons and loving your husband. - If you know me, you know I love reading/writing about marriage and relationships. There is always so much to learn, grow and change from your marriage and I soak it all in. Soak this post in, it's a good one!

  • Christina at Carolina Charm has officially made the best Carrot Cake ever and my mouth seriously watered when I saw her photos. Carrot Cake is my ultimate weakness and I had this on my list to make this week and then ran out of time. But, it's still on my list for as soon as I can and trust me, I cannot wait. 

  • Cait at Home Sweet Ruby has made me 100% envious of her gorgeous master bedroom update. I have been bitten by the spring cleaning/house makeover bug and it's bit me hard. So, I am taking her room as inspiration because I just love it!

  • Heather at honee bee came up with these delicious looking sweet potato chips and a seriously good looking dip! I am a sweet potato fanatic and this look so easy to make/bake and pop into my mouth. Plus, the blog is just too cute to not visit!

  • Any other Pampered Chef lovers out there? I found this Meatloaf recipe on Pinterest and it lead me to the blog Sneaky Spoons (love the name!). I made her meatloaf in my Pampered Chef round covered baker and it was so perfect! Wyatt is a super giant non fan of meatloaf, and I was the mean wife who made it anyway. Guess who ate it for dinner and leftovers for lunch? Yep. The meatloaf hater.

Happy Spring to you all, wherever you are! I hope you get some sunshine and happiness today!

It's Not About Being Right

Let me air some dirty laundry for you.

This weekend, we were down to one car. If you saw my post on Friday, you'd know the front end of our truck got a little crunched, and it was currently being fixed. Wyatt had a giant "honey do" list this weekend, and I told him it was likely I'd just go do something with my mom if I needed to do anything.

I stayed home, he went off to Lowes, the auto parts store, and so on and so forth.

Mom calls to go to lunch and do some fun things (like Pier One shopping!) and I head out the door with her!

All is good and well, right?

I receive a call at lunch. Then another call. Then another call. Then a text, then another text. I finally look down and it's Wyatt. I was happily in mom-land bliss at lunch, so quickly text him "Hello" and put my phone back down.

Fast forward to leaving lunch, I look down and see another missed call. So, I call back.

On the other end is a barky husband, asking where I was, why I didn't answer, what I was doing, so on and so forth. I have to admit, I hung up on him. I was busy, I didn't have time for an attitude, I was headed to Pier One!

Fast forward to the end of the day. I get home after being with my mom, he gets home from his day and neither of us are very happy with each other, to say the least. 

In my mind, I had told him I would likely be with my mom if I left the house, I had been at lunch and didn't want to interrupt my time with her and called him back at a more opportune time. I felt angry that I had called back to such hostility, and felt justified in hanging up on him.

In his mind, he had come home to clothes and makeup all over, no wife, no note letting him know where I was, and most especially, he kept saying that whenever we are together, at lunch, or otherwise, I usually have my phone glued to me and I never mind interrupting my time with him to answer a call.

Hello, miscommunication. What a classic example of two brains working two completely different ways, resulting in two outcomes over the same situation. 

It took a bit, but the final result was that he was hurt, I was hurt, and we both felt right.

And guess what? Sometimes, most especially in marriage, you have to give up your feeling of "right". You have to let go of justification. You have to step outside your box, to not only try and understand the other person, but to let how that person feels be more important than your own feelings in certain moments.

I wish I could say that our lesson is learned, although I'm sure in the future miscommunication will happen again. Hurt will happen again, and I am so glad I've got someone who will work to figure it out with me.